Despite replacing alcohol with chocolate in the first 4-6 weeks I’m losing weight with no effort on my part. I went for a 5k run and my time was a personal best as I am becoming fitter. Sleep is so much better and for a girl who loves her sleep I can’t believe that I let alcohol spoil that favourite pastime. Awoke early thinking about writing about alcohol not regretting what I had done under its influence the night before. That was why it was time to stop.įast forward to this morning. I didn’t feel p*ssed that night but felt rotten the next morning and that was how my life with alcohol had become.
So I sat in my garden, on my own, and drank and smoked till it was all gone. It felt like I was just hitting my stride but I knew that it was more than enough to be classified as a binge and to give me a bad head.Īs it was my last w/end of drinking and excess I also chuffed my way through 10 fags even though I gave up a year ago. My body was so used to alcohol that my tolerance was pretty high and that amount didn’t make me feel drunk. On both the Friday and Saturday night I had a g&t to start, 1/2 a bottle of red and then a peach schnapps to finish. I planned to make sure I had all my favourite alcoholic beverages. There was no way it was ever going to be one drink so I made it my last week-end of drinking. I read the Allen Carr book ‘Easy Way to Control Alcohol’ and he suggests you have your last drink at the end of it. It was a monster as I was determined to make sure it was etched on my memory. The very first book that popped up was Allen Carr's Easy Way to Stop Drinking book, so I bought it, read it from cover to cover, and quit drinking as soon as I got to the end of it.I had my last hangover. I got up and went into my living room and grabbed my phone, because something told me to go on Amazon and search for books about how to quit drinking. Thankfully, my prayer was answered right away. I hadn't prayed for a long time and had zero spiritual life at that point, but knew I couldn't do it on my own so I made heartfelt prayer for help with my addiction. So, I slowly got out of bed and dropped to my knees and asked for help. The morning after that party when I had a massive hangover, I started thinking about how I needed to quit drinking but didn't think I could. Initially I was mad at them about it, but deep down I knew they were right: Alcohol was slowly ruining my life but I felt powerless to stop. My rock bottom came after a night of extremely heavy drinking at a friend's surprise birthday party-several friends confronted me at that party about how they felt like my drinking was out of control. I've had a problem with alcohol since my teenage years, and finally hit rock bottom in my early thirties while using it to cope with postpartum depression and anxiety. If you've read my book The Gratitude Jar: A Simple Guide to Creating Miracles, then you know my backstory.
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